"Here am I

and there is my body

dancing on glass

In accident time where there are no accidents

You have no choice

the choice comes after"

-04:48 Psychosis-

I went to the theatre today with my mum. We saw 04:48 Psychosis. This play did make a big impression on me. When I sat there I started to cry. It was so sad, and I could identify myself in so much of the pain.

"Do you think it is possible for a person to be born in the wrong body"

04:48 Psychosis is written by Sarah Kane. She is one of the 1990's biggest dramatist. In 1999 she took suicide, just two months after she had finished 04:48 Psychosis. So she have described the pain when u are mentally ill very well.

"I cannot be alone, I cannot be with others"

"every compliment takes a piece of my soul"

04:48 Psychosis is set in a mental hospital. We become known with all her struugles. Her fight agains herself, her psychosis, her anorexia, her nervous breakdown and her depression. We get to know her when she talk to her doctors and nurses. How she just want to be alone, take suicede. How they chemical abuse her with all the pills. She don't want to take pills, they destroy her life and feelings. She just want to be normal, but she can't. Everyone tell her that it isn't her fault but she don't want to hear that. She want to hear that she can get well. In the end she can't take it anymore and take an overdose...

"they will love me for that which destroys me"

before - after

© Nemi 2002/2003